Monday, February 23, 2009

I need some motivation.

So, I found out today that I am on academic probation... again. Since I got to Valley Oaks in the 8th grade, I've been on academic probation a total of 4 times, counting this time. I feel like such a slacker and I hate it. What's worse is that I thought I was doing relatively well on my school work so far. Apparently I have nothing higher than a B-. I know I'm not stupid, but, being lazy isn't really all that much of a better character trait. I'm in danger of not graduating, according to my teachers, and now I am stressing big time. As if I wasn't inordinately anxious already. Oh well, I guess that's just the way the cookie crumbles. I'll deal with it. Shouldn't be too hard right? I can't believe I am not even doing well in English, though. English is my forte, and I have a 77%. What the hell is that? I'm getting to complacent. I need some kind of ambition. Where can I find that? It certainly can't be found anywhere at Valley Oaks. I have little to no motivation and it's taking it's toll on my academic performance. Hopefully high school doesn't matter as much as it's being made out to be. I think I would excel in college, much more so than in high school. I like the concept of getting to study what I want to, instead of what I have to. We'll see come fall, I guess.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

I'm gonna get started.

So, I kind of forgot I even had this thing, and I decided I'd like to start it up, and for real this time. I'm going to put the word out there, get some readers, spark some interest. I'd like to start posting every day, like you're supposed to. For now, I guess I'll just do a recap of the past month or so for the people who I plan to recruit as an audience.

Well, I was legalized in January, finally. I'm 18 and I must say, it's not all it's cracked up to be. The only real difference? I can buy Lotto tickets now. It's a milestone, I suppose, though. I've been given a lot more freedom by my mother, but I'm also carrying a few responsibilities. I pay for my own stuff now (besides my cell... soon, though) and I am on the lookout for a job. Nothing yet, but the yard sale I had put me up $225 bucks. Not bad for one Saturday morning.

Sam moved in with me about a month ago. It's been going incredibly well so far, and I'm hoping it will continue to. It's caused some tension between us and a few people, but, I think the awkwardness is slowly dying down. Hopefully soon everyone will be accepting of us. Not that nobody is on our side. Most of my family is incredibly supportive. I guess it's just a little more common on my side. He and I have been pooling our money together, and it hasn't been too incredibly difficult to buy our food and necessities (and even a few tiny luxuries), but I get that it's going to be a tough year or so. We're not moving out on our own just yet, but it's definitely in the cards. Until then, though, I'm loving how it's going so far. Not sleeping alone is quite lovely.

School is... eh, it's going, I guess. I'm a tad behind in a couple of classes, but I'm pretty much on par with everything. It's not intelligence I lack, just ambition. I'm a bit too lazy because I'm used to doing hardly anything and still getting by in everything. I didn't realize senior year required more than that. Only three more months, though; and then off to B.C. It's kind of my only option at the moment. We'll see where that takes me. I'm just going to start in the Spring, since I may be spending a few months in South America over the summer. Which, by the way, I'm stoked about.

Let's see, home life, school life, plans for the near future... Not much more to cover. After this, my blogs will be less diary entry and more... I can't really think of a term, I'm exhausted, but basically it will be more like other blogs. Opinions and thoughts and all that jazz. So, stay tuned.

Goodnight and have a pleasant tomorrow.